Such Sweet Sorrow

You gave me life, you gave me power

For me you devoted every single precious hour

You made me from a piece of your own body, from a fragment of your very essence

You nurtured me with love and compassion, from infancy through adolescence

You enlightened me with knowledge and taught me what I know

You protected me from all worldly pains, even the slightest woe

You taught me how to face adversities with great courage and fortitude

You showed me how to be a good believer with faith, temperance and gratitude

You spent sleepless nights taking care of me when I fell sick

Your lips would mumble prayers for me, just as a clock would constantly tick

When you fell ill, the agony was only yours to know

As much as I wanted you to stay, I knew, at some point, I would have to let you go

So much anguish in one malignant cell, it caused suffering so incredibly

Like blight of the blackest plague, an illness you would not even wish upon your enemy

Though, from the start, this was a losing battle

Your valiant soul this disease could not enslave

I had to save you, whether I was meant to or not

But you were never mine to save

Every breath you took was full of agony; every day you spent was full of misery

At that point, what was to happen, was more of a necessity than a tragedy

Be it in the Afterlife, at least you would have lived happily

And so, I finally learnt to accept it, when I saw beyond the eclipse of my sanity

Like a seed, I was now broken

Completely undone and my insides ripped out

Though it was utter destruction in my short-sightedness

In truth, it was a rite of passage, for a fated doctor, purposelessly wandering about

I feel your love even though you sleep eternal evermore

I feel you lurking by even though you don't walk with me anymore

A place remains within my lasting heart, where a piece of you will always reside

Albeit an unconventional way, it will have to do until I also cross this great divide

Looking at God's ‘bigger picture,’ I finally saw the ‘conflict’

And I let loose a war cry

I had realized that my destiny was medicine

As it was always meant to be, in God's Eye

I will be the strong man you always wanted me to be

And I will start this all as anew

I will be the son you always saw in me

And now you live in me, like 23 years ago, I lived in you